It is something that kept on passing, no matter how often you make predictions on what’s coming next time, they will never tell you what year will bring you. Good or bad, sweet or bitter, you just have to find out by experience. IF,, and only IF, the prediction happens to be right, it’s just good random luck.
Random and yet praised and sometimes worshiped in some culture.
As year progresses things might seem a bit scattered in places and within that year you will strive to put things back in order again, a new order as it may seem to be, well, in my experience they always seems to be, but in fact the are the same as they were the year before. The things that are “disarranged” and the “new” order that they are going to be “arranged” in, all are the same, the only difference it seems to have is just because the mind serves us a different frame and through different frames we see different sides of life, there where we might mistaken a side that has no problem what so ever to be so lacking of many things, and we fix that side by rearranging the scattered things in the order that we are familiar with at the time. So when that one side has become familiar and “good” we feel content, but as the year ends and we find ourself in a new frame, the other side, the new side of life that we discover in the new year would look so out of place and we would have to repeat that process again and again, year after year,
All it takes to see it is just a stop,
Stop everything and see, feel, care and everything might be just a little bit clearer than it is. This might not help, but a clearer view just might make you see a path that was never before available to your eyes, well at least it became available for me. I’m not teaching or preaching about anything, I’m just trying to get my mind straight by letting things out from my mind, a debugging process for my crashing brain
The allocated space for memories in my brain is running low, I cannot upgrade and I cannot reformat it. Just a long hard debug that I will have to go through again, year after year. A painful and lonely process of removing, replacing, rewriting and lots and lots of memories. Good, bad, wanted and unwanted memories, even the bad and unwanted memories will someday be a memory to be missed, it will be a road to smiles and cheers, for it has taught lessons and clear path to a sane decisions. But it is long time after the debug. Long after.. Wait.. In patience.. And silence.